i dreamt of someone the other day, someone i havent talked to, or met for almost 2 yrs. it was a short dream but i certainly felt the impact of it cause each and everyday for the time we last saw each other till the now, i cant stop thinking of how life would be like if i had done the approach in a different way. no one could do that to me, absolutely no one can make me do the things that i did. but hell, its life anyway, wat you see is never wat you get so yeah.
ive tried so hard to resume myself from it but i cant as the ppl i took to replace was mere "comers and goers" of me or non-committers who just had other things in mind. im so fucking tired of the bullshit of giving but not getting, even more fuckign tired of waiting. if it was up to me, i'd line them up to a wall and shoot their fucking heads. many have come and go but that person is still one that will never fade from my memory.
watever it is, i thank you for making me spend a portion of my life with you. i'll never forget you SUSU
